from the beginning i knew that i needed to stand on my own.

i needed to toughen up myself on everything.

i knew this on the very first day when i had to bring the friggin huge heavy luggage

on my own up on the bus.

however when i needed you the most and you are not here.

it's not your fault to be blame but right now i just need a shoulder to lay on.

im just so tired.

it's like i forgotten how to smile

it's like i forgotten how is life supposed to be.