Been heard and seen

Thus im leaving 2009 behind with lots of mixed sentiments

And looking forward for a better year in 2010.

Throughout 2009,

I have,

Been hurt, screams are heard every morning, tears are shed every hour, broken heart can be seen clearly, shoulder of comfort was needed every day. even forgiveness was given however the scar remains

Hurt, I couldn’t have ever been forgive not even myself would

Fallen in love, which was sweet while it lasted

Fallen apart, appreciation wasn’t thought of, due to selfishness it did ended up with regrets

Fallen in love again, though was hard through those disagreements and loathes but it did proved forever was something

Worked, for very first time, the exposure of accounting world is open up to me

Hoped for more, knowing I was a step closer to Sunway University College with him was blessed

Fallen, but it didn’t last long due to own faulty

Took the unfamiliar trail, decision to the northern side for studies was a 360 change in my life. Leaving family, friends and loved one was indeed wasn’t the will of own

Been toughen up, 5 days of sleepless nights proven the life of local university is not going to be an easy road. the life of living by own self isn’t easy, no longer being surrounded by familiar faces, no longer having the shoulders to lay on, no longer having the hands that pull you up when you falls, no longer having those eyes telling you not to give up. Only by own will to pull myself together.

Meet new friends, which was superb and learned to share the hostel life with.

Seen friends leaving, goodbye was hard to bid, hugs were tighter, the absent feeling was unacceptable.

Been accepted, by his family. Those simply dinner and small little conversations was meaningful.

To learn, that changes are inevitable, though efforts are put into it to remain what was used to be. Feelings changed, perceptions are so vulnerable to be altered no longer like what it was in the past, future is prioritize, routine is being erased, distances came into sight, only those recollections remained.

Appreciate and continue appreciating, on what was around me. Having to know they were so precious to me when I was on the edge of losing them.

Been to, an awesome trip to redang,

To learn, to wash my own clothes

To make, friends with creepy crawling in my hostel surrounding,

To live, in the life of country side leaving the life of city and shopping behind

To carry, tonnes of heavy bags and luggages to and fro to university

To pack, only what I need and having to live without my whole wardrobe,

Speaks, mandarin as my daily language of conversation more than I did in my whole life,

Recollects, the sweetness and bitterness in secondary and form 6.

Missing, my family,him, besties and close friends more than I’ve ever thought

and finally

Seen, the very first sunset by my own eyes.

Let’s have a better year ahead.

to some it might be the end but to every ending there's a new beginning. =)

*cheers*

xF